I had an important exam on Monday, and instead of going with A (usual "clique"), I went with people I were more comfortable with - and indeed I learnt better woohoops. But .. I was on my to the exam hall and saw one of his friends. Till then, I realised my social anxiety has already evolved into something that I couldn't control anymore. I began hyperventilating (?) lol (a bit dramatic but sobs) and not being able to concentrate sobs. Eventually I anyhowed the exam and got out of the hall in hopes of getting out of school since I felt so sick.
But .. since I was going with my friends for dinner and I always stay till the last minute, they assumed I will be there all the way LOL sobs. Anyways I was wondering if I should see a psycharist but .. I don' t think it's that serious yet and it will probably heal? (I hope so) BUT (aha so many buts today) one thing for sure, I can never go back finding old friends.
I'm fearful of social judgement, and even though I didn't do anything wrong, I feel discriminated by their sight, feeling fear that they have been fed stories that benefitted them only. Sobs. March is coming and there is still no news about Denmark. :(
I really hope things can go smoothly and hope I can go travelling soon and SURVIVE MARCH HAHA
Resolutions these year (lol although I'm late)
To drive well
Slim down
OH ya and video of the day - this song is honestly good :D
I know it's my fault for not taking up those "opportunities" but
wishlist: to find a soulmate or someone who will listen to me haha
There is just so much to do
I can't seem to cope
I REALLY WANT TO GO DENMARK NOOOOO
(even tho I might get ostracised)
sobs
Anyways, I was thinking to write a story (inspired by produce101) where the main character is actually a high school student with good grades but bored with life so she signs up for an audition program through his uncle's agency and take part in the audition. She would probably be the main vocal and then build an all star team. However, she does have a problem. She appears unfriendly although pretty, and unsociable.
Song of the day:
Girl- Woo Ye Rin
This song describes the reality of every high school girl where competition exists (everywhere) and she has to resist the temptation of hurting others to climb higher.
Er because I'm a super fan of her works here's another one
her recent Yeontan (two people playing the piano) perfomance
Red Shoes Cover (IU) by Woo Ye Rin and An Ye Eun
Again, they chose to cover this song because of the fairytale behind this song.
So this girl wishes for shoes to take her wherever she wants
and she does get it and goes wherever she wants
except home
When she finally get rid of the shoes (didn't listen to her orders)
and returned home, her mom has already passed away from an illness.